This morning I completely dropped the ball .i didn’t make it into work and now I’m sitting at home waiting till
I have to go to class.i was pulling
My hair out and hyperventilating but nothing worked.when it came down to being a responsible person I couldn’t even get myself to work. I failed at my only important task.i let David down and that put a hole through me just as much as missing work.the last few days I’ve been getting these mad headaches and I probably should have seen something like me screwing shit up coming. There is no one to blame but myself .there are two things that at the moment would kill me to lose ,one is my job and the other is David.i just wish I was a better person,that I was able to stand on my own two feet with out various crutches . My tax money still hasn’t come and with that taking its time I’m going insane trying to stay afloat .I don’t know how I can expect myself to get an apartment or rent a room of I can’t even get to work on time .